R.U.N.N.I.N.G.

Running...ugh!

About 9 weeks ago we began the Couch to 5k training program. At the end of 9 weeks you should be able to run a 5k. Well...I have made it 1 mile only once. I seem to be stuck on about 7/10ths of a mile at a time. DOUBLE UGH!!! This a 5k does not make.

I first have to say, I am grateful that I am able to attempt to run. The reality of maybe losing my ability to walk hit me square in the face 12 years ago.
That is when my MS diagnosis began. The Lord has been merciful to me though and I suffer no great debilitating effects of this disease. I do however suffer some physical difficulties that hinder my ability to run as far and long as I want to.... And let me tell you, this came as a great surprise to me. I wasn't expecting this to be so hard.

I see people running all the time and they make it look so easy...lol!! I told Maggie that once and she said, "Mom, I'm sure it isn't easy for them either." Love that girl:)

I'm not gonna lie, at first I was a bit angry over this. Then I was reminded that His grace is sufficient. I can walk, and I can run. It is just going to be a loooong haul to get to my goal. I haven't yet accepted that my max distance may only be a mile at a time before my left leg/foot quit on me. I am going to keep pushing and praying and crying (yes, I have shed some tears over this) until I am fully convinced I have hit my "mark". I really do not want my "mark" to be only a mile. However, if that is where I max out, I will accept it with gratitude.

For all of the runners out there, you truly have been given a gift! I want that free fall of running to be mine! And I really have no idea why. Maybe it's my "I'm over 40 and need to do something" time! Like the fact that I want to teach myself to play guitar :)

Well, the rain is stopping, my cue to put on my running shoes, clip my phone (for music and gps) to my hip and hit the pavement and see how far I can make it today. I am hopeful, maybe today will bring a greater distance!